It's About Time

Some reasons I know it is time for the baby to be here:

1) I just took my last Pepcid AC - it has served me well. I have been sleeping soundly without many heartburn issues for a few weeks now. I don't want to buy a new bottle because I know I won't use but a couple of them.

2) I've started ruining my maternity clothes. Two days in a row I've gotten oil on, first my favorite pants and now a shirt that I happen to really like. I won't have anything to wear if this continues. (I'm in the process of laundering, so maybe this one won't really count. Fingers crossed.)

We decided with our doctor today, that if we don't have the baby by Thursday, we will induce. It has not been an easy decision. I do not want to choose my baby's birthday; I do not want to labor entirely at the hospital; I do not want to force something to happen, that I know can happen naturally. I feel like I am cheating. What it comes down to: the baby is getting bigger and my placenta is starting to calcify. Reasons that will make delivery more difficult on me and the baby. The doctor says baby will do better this week than next. He doesn't say it has to be done this week - he recommends, but isn't insisting. It doesn't make sense to wait till she starts to show signs of distress. I am very torn, because I believe that in most cases, Mama and baby do what needs to be done, and things turn out fine (although likely more painfully.) I feel like I'm giving in to fear of delivering an enormous baby, and have a lack of faith. Personally, I feel pretty good, and wouldn't mind being pregnant for another 2 weeks, but I am having a lot of anxiety about her health and this decision. This is why I don't like being over-due - I'm starting to worry. I just really hope we're making the right decision. (Prayers for baby coming on her own before then!)